Dirty Money Sanitize

Come in, come in
you seat me next to the kitchen window
I watch you slump and divide
like something I know, I know
broken down the middle like silence
or two halves of the moon
or split-spoke wheels spinning backward
the night I astral hydroplaned your Spider  
you called it ritual sacrifice
at the villa in Corfu your best man-to-be
drew me in the grand hall 
adrift in haze til I woke you
til I folded down like silk 
the gun up to his jaw damned in a trance,
a stranger, the naked blue-veined place, 
eyes turned backward like classroom clocks
the same ruined scene I draw by memory
it comes up to my door with no place to go
stacking the miles and staking their claim 
see me, see me 
hold still nobody else 
just a shape and a shape how I know 
what this is, how you return to me.